2weeks from the previous update.
nothing much really. been working, working, going out, working. the first day of work we were dead tired 'cos we weren't used to it. "our leg's feel as if it's gonna break!", quoted by chermaine. hahaha! met a few new people at work. some are nasty, some are cool, some are cute, some are angelic, some are attractive, some are assholes. but most of them are nice. =D
BUT! i think i'm gonna turn into a workaholic soon! i can't take the boredom at home!
i just finished watching all 5seasons of smallville, &it's not enough! i need more dvd's! :( the tv programs aren't always nice, &going online isn't as fun as watching shows. AHH! help me!
well hmm actually, my life isn't that boring. =D met up with crystal, huifen, vanessa &corrie yesterday for a little shopping. rushed to the restaurant at around 10pm to get the menu from them. omg, it was kinda embarrassing 'cos we ran in the rain &when we reached there we look as though we took a shower! after that we went to eat stingray &then homed.
few days ago my sis, my bro &i met up at marche to eat dinner. delish! i know i know, i planned on going for a diet. don't think that i've already stopped. it's still on okay! i lost 2kg already! :) but i don't look like i just lost 2kg right? :(
on the 9th we went to ms. yeo's wedding. aww, she looks really pretty. & we took several pictures. other teachers were there too. after that crystal &i slacked at corrie's house. took many many pictures again. =D
yay! i'm going shopping tomorrow with my sis! yay! :)
(i'm really sorry this entry is a lil messy 'cos i'm really very bored!)
byebye!
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Monday, December 11, 2006
the one person that seemed to be my whole universe had slowly slipped away without me realising a damn thing. bit by bit the rope that used to tie us together became a thread that could barely hold us back to each other..
"an escapist" is what i can be called. i used to run away from every little (or big) fight we encountered, thinking foolishly that things would be better that way. we led such a joyous yet complex life together. stupidity played along &the number of problems piled up. how i wished i knew how ugly it will turn out to be playing such a mindless game..
days passed, then weeks, then months. life was per normal, until one day i realised what i had been missing outside: the perfect world of my own, the satisfying life i've always wanted to live. i had the sudden urge of facing every challenge, i started to be someone who i want to be.
a collision is what i may call this. he was leading the same old life we had, but i was heading towards a very different direction. running mile after mile away from every question, it came to a time where we couldn't catch up anymore. i started realising things, very unpleasant things that can never make me look at our relationship the same way i did before. you, being able to make me laugh even at my lowest, making me feel so warm. you used to be what i called my "happy hormone", but everything started changing when i started trying to be a whole new person.
all the things came right at me one very day when i was transforming: this whole relationship was full of mistakes, mistakes that can never be corrected due to our lack of understanding &our several differences. don't get me wrong. i never thought that the times we had was a mistake. it's just that everyday it comes right at me without fail, that what we had was like an endless fairytale. but because of my selfishness, my immorality, it came to a point where all i wanted is myself to be happy, to get what i really want. my love slowly got washed away by sunlight &rain..
all i want is to fly free again. to look at the world with great pride, to seek many unbelievable findings about human life, to become me but not me. my desire to be someone i'm not was too much, leaving you behind me, slowly losing my grip as a result.
it's all my fault. if only it was the same as before.. if only i had loved him the same way, then i wouldn't be able to let him slip away just because of a little thing called freedom. i'll do what master says, act like master acts. &then everything would the same.
sometimes i wonder why i became such an idiot, that i left someone like you behind without even knowing it, or a smartass, to finally realise what the world has to offer me.
but now i don't know what i want anymore. i don't want to get back to the old illogical & dependent me. i want to learn things. at the same time i want to be crazy, forgiving &become the out-of-the-world girlfriend i used to be, just to get the love of my life back in my arms.
just from flashbacks, &i want to be back there even with the chains around my ankles. but then i wake up everytime and look at the place surrounding me. &then i realise that the whole world is ahead, waiting for me.
hopes about us had reached to the height of mount everest. i know a year ago, i asked the same question but who cares? i haven't got the answer to it yet:
is HOPE the first step down the path to disappointment?
or is it the magic that keeps us hanging in there even when our minds' battling with our hearts?
so tell me which way to go, the past or the future? 'cos i cant take it anymore..
"an escapist" is what i can be called. i used to run away from every little (or big) fight we encountered, thinking foolishly that things would be better that way. we led such a joyous yet complex life together. stupidity played along &the number of problems piled up. how i wished i knew how ugly it will turn out to be playing such a mindless game..
days passed, then weeks, then months. life was per normal, until one day i realised what i had been missing outside: the perfect world of my own, the satisfying life i've always wanted to live. i had the sudden urge of facing every challenge, i started to be someone who i want to be.
a collision is what i may call this. he was leading the same old life we had, but i was heading towards a very different direction. running mile after mile away from every question, it came to a time where we couldn't catch up anymore. i started realising things, very unpleasant things that can never make me look at our relationship the same way i did before. you, being able to make me laugh even at my lowest, making me feel so warm. you used to be what i called my "happy hormone", but everything started changing when i started trying to be a whole new person.
all the things came right at me one very day when i was transforming: this whole relationship was full of mistakes, mistakes that can never be corrected due to our lack of understanding &our several differences. don't get me wrong. i never thought that the times we had was a mistake. it's just that everyday it comes right at me without fail, that what we had was like an endless fairytale. but because of my selfishness, my immorality, it came to a point where all i wanted is myself to be happy, to get what i really want. my love slowly got washed away by sunlight &rain..
all i want is to fly free again. to look at the world with great pride, to seek many unbelievable findings about human life, to become me but not me. my desire to be someone i'm not was too much, leaving you behind me, slowly losing my grip as a result.
it's all my fault. if only it was the same as before.. if only i had loved him the same way, then i wouldn't be able to let him slip away just because of a little thing called freedom. i'll do what master says, act like master acts. &then everything would the same.
sometimes i wonder why i became such an idiot, that i left someone like you behind without even knowing it, or a smartass, to finally realise what the world has to offer me.
but now i don't know what i want anymore. i don't want to get back to the old illogical & dependent me. i want to learn things. at the same time i want to be crazy, forgiving &become the out-of-the-world girlfriend i used to be, just to get the love of my life back in my arms.
just from flashbacks, &i want to be back there even with the chains around my ankles. but then i wake up everytime and look at the place surrounding me. &then i realise that the whole world is ahead, waiting for me.
hopes about us had reached to the height of mount everest. i know a year ago, i asked the same question but who cares? i haven't got the answer to it yet:
is HOPE the first step down the path to disappointment?
or is it the magic that keeps us hanging in there even when our minds' battling with our hearts?
so tell me which way to go, the past or the future? 'cos i cant take it anymore..
Sunday, December 03, 2006
back from a blast!
after disappearing for months, i've finally found time (& mood) to start writing about my life again. i tell you, the past few months i've had weren't just "the past few months". it felt like many many years of hardships &discontentment, not to mention PAIN.
ups &downs, lefts &rights. you name it, i've got it.
since no one is actually reading my stuff already, i shall write freely ¬ "hide behind bushes".
i've been admitted again, &sad to say, it won't be the last time. although times in there were pretty rough &tough, i'd say i've learned many things about people (shan't say what) & met several people who has gone through so much &still remain intact. :)
all i want to say is, thank you to those who found time to visit me, because even for just that moment you guys made me feel comfortable. :)
thank you, you guys.
okay, specifically it's the great wonderful people in my life, my clique, who hadn't make me feel empty &alone.
yanping, roger &wenjie. people who obviously is close to my heart.
huiyi &limin, the ones who took the trouble to pay me a visit.
gillian, the girl who can never stop laughing.
vanessa &huifen, 2very nice &caring people.
mr chua, who bought for me 2 of each type of pau from the most famous pau store in singapore, &mr lee, the one who never failed to bring me scrumptuous delicacies everytime he drops by.
last but not least, my hero. the one who brought me a bouquet of roses right after school, the one who took the pain to make me a cute gundam &color it with my favorite color even during the mugging period of our o's, the only one who took me downstairs to light candles during the mid-autumn festival, the one who never ever fails to tuck me to bed (even by phone =D) every single night of my stay in that horrible place.
it was sad, a few days after i had been discharged it was crystal's birthday, & i didn't make it!
sorry crystal, i know it means a lot to you. really sorry.
oh, &i wanna greet her a BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY here, :) .
so enough about that.
before &during o's were the worst days of my life. everyone was trying to be the toughest of the toughest. most art students were practically living in hell way before o levels began. had to finish our coursework, &after coursework was paper1 which we had to do before our o's &hand it all up up together with our final design. i tell you, it was horrid horrid HORRID!
after art our hearts felt a lil lighter, it's like the whole burden art brought to us finally went gone & is O-V-E-R! the rest of the papers were okay, maybe except for maths 1 'cos i panicked & almost died, chemistry 'cos i totally did not know anything despite the countless of days i wasted mugging that stupid pathetic half a subject (!!!!!!!), accounts 'cos i totally gave up mid-way, &history 'cos dang it, i studied the wrong chapters!
after o's everyone was relieved. we thought of celebrating so ley, phiney &i went to catch step up. okay, after that day, the rest of the days were invaded by boredom.
only except for the days we went present hunting for chermaine's birthday. we actually thought that it was easy getting her something this time 'round because we know exactly what she wanted: a white nike watch. but we didn't expect it to be as hard a before! we went in several nike shops &found every other color except for a white one. the worst thing was, every nike shop has the exact same watches, so how are we gonna find her dream watch??
so, we decided to hunt for watches with other brands like adidas. nada! finally, when we arrived lido ley &phiney spotted this white watch, it's gorgeous but we hesitated to buy it 'cos it isn't a nike. in the end, we bought it anyway. hahaha!
the day of chermaine's birthday, it was stressful yet exciting. we had to rush here & there to get everything done because we thought that the ever so punctual chermaine would be punctual. but haha, guess what, she wasn't! in fact, she was very very late! but it's okay, now it's our turn to wait & it's her day anyway so, who cares?? =D
everything went on smoothly. our plan was not ruined even though we rushed on everything. cafe cartel first. we gave her a very very small slice of cake to make her think that we actually don't have any more money to buy her the big cake. we sang the happy birthday song &she was so so embarrased 'cos people were looking. so we ate, everyone was bloated &then the big cake arrived! we embarrased her again! hahaha. but it all went fine. we were very sweet actually, we ate the whole cake together using our forks! :)
we quickly ate and then we rushed to the cinema. we bluffed maine about the movie, & the first thing she said when we reached was "walao eh". it was 9:56, a horror movie, &she doesn't like horror movies 'cos she gets scared. hahaha! & throughout the movie, she covered her eyes &only allowed herself to look at the subtitles! how cute is that!
after the movie we walked from cine to cathay cineplex. we hung out there for awhile, surfed the net & then we went off. we had a fun day, all 7 of us. :)
been hanging out with chermaine &crystal lately, especially crystal. we've been finding jobs together. always hanging around holland v &town to job-hunt. after many painful days of rejections, we finally found a job! & the best part is.. we get good money! :) we're gonna start on the 11th, & we are so excited! especially me &crystal. our eyes are like filled with dollar signs whenever we think of the job! =D
okay so i guess i've filled in all the blank pages from the past months. :)
ups &downs, lefts &rights. you name it, i've got it.
since no one is actually reading my stuff already, i shall write freely ¬ "hide behind bushes".
i've been admitted again, &sad to say, it won't be the last time. although times in there were pretty rough &tough, i'd say i've learned many things about people (shan't say what) & met several people who has gone through so much &still remain intact. :)
all i want to say is, thank you to those who found time to visit me, because even for just that moment you guys made me feel comfortable. :)
thank you, you guys.
okay, specifically it's the great wonderful people in my life, my clique, who hadn't make me feel empty &alone.
yanping, roger &wenjie. people who obviously is close to my heart.
huiyi &limin, the ones who took the trouble to pay me a visit.
gillian, the girl who can never stop laughing.
vanessa &huifen, 2very nice &caring people.
mr chua, who bought for me 2 of each type of pau from the most famous pau store in singapore, &mr lee, the one who never failed to bring me scrumptuous delicacies everytime he drops by.
last but not least, my hero. the one who brought me a bouquet of roses right after school, the one who took the pain to make me a cute gundam &color it with my favorite color even during the mugging period of our o's, the only one who took me downstairs to light candles during the mid-autumn festival, the one who never ever fails to tuck me to bed (even by phone =D) every single night of my stay in that horrible place.
it was sad, a few days after i had been discharged it was crystal's birthday, & i didn't make it!
sorry crystal, i know it means a lot to you. really sorry.
oh, &i wanna greet her a BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY here, :) .
so enough about that.
before &during o's were the worst days of my life. everyone was trying to be the toughest of the toughest. most art students were practically living in hell way before o levels began. had to finish our coursework, &after coursework was paper1 which we had to do before our o's &hand it all up up together with our final design. i tell you, it was horrid horrid HORRID!
after art our hearts felt a lil lighter, it's like the whole burden art brought to us finally went gone & is O-V-E-R! the rest of the papers were okay, maybe except for maths 1 'cos i panicked & almost died, chemistry 'cos i totally did not know anything despite the countless of days i wasted mugging that stupid pathetic half a subject (!!!!!!!), accounts 'cos i totally gave up mid-way, &history 'cos dang it, i studied the wrong chapters!
after o's everyone was relieved. we thought of celebrating so ley, phiney &i went to catch step up. okay, after that day, the rest of the days were invaded by boredom.
only except for the days we went present hunting for chermaine's birthday. we actually thought that it was easy getting her something this time 'round because we know exactly what she wanted: a white nike watch. but we didn't expect it to be as hard a before! we went in several nike shops &found every other color except for a white one. the worst thing was, every nike shop has the exact same watches, so how are we gonna find her dream watch??
so, we decided to hunt for watches with other brands like adidas. nada! finally, when we arrived lido ley &phiney spotted this white watch, it's gorgeous but we hesitated to buy it 'cos it isn't a nike. in the end, we bought it anyway. hahaha!
the day of chermaine's birthday, it was stressful yet exciting. we had to rush here & there to get everything done because we thought that the ever so punctual chermaine would be punctual. but haha, guess what, she wasn't! in fact, she was very very late! but it's okay, now it's our turn to wait & it's her day anyway so, who cares?? =D
everything went on smoothly. our plan was not ruined even though we rushed on everything. cafe cartel first. we gave her a very very small slice of cake to make her think that we actually don't have any more money to buy her the big cake. we sang the happy birthday song &she was so so embarrased 'cos people were looking. so we ate, everyone was bloated &then the big cake arrived! we embarrased her again! hahaha. but it all went fine. we were very sweet actually, we ate the whole cake together using our forks! :)
we quickly ate and then we rushed to the cinema. we bluffed maine about the movie, & the first thing she said when we reached was "walao eh". it was 9:56, a horror movie, &she doesn't like horror movies 'cos she gets scared. hahaha! & throughout the movie, she covered her eyes &only allowed herself to look at the subtitles! how cute is that!
after the movie we walked from cine to cathay cineplex. we hung out there for awhile, surfed the net & then we went off. we had a fun day, all 7 of us. :)
been hanging out with chermaine &crystal lately, especially crystal. we've been finding jobs together. always hanging around holland v &town to job-hunt. after many painful days of rejections, we finally found a job! & the best part is.. we get good money! :) we're gonna start on the 11th, & we are so excited! especially me &crystal. our eyes are like filled with dollar signs whenever we think of the job! =D
okay so i guess i've filled in all the blank pages from the past months. :)
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Thursday, July 13, 2006
it'll be alright. :)
though i don't really know what i'm going to do when i get there,
take a breath and hold on tight.
spin around one more time,
and gracefully fall back to the arms of grace.
'cos im hanging on every word you say,
&even if you don't want to speak tonight,
that's alright.
alright with me.
'cos i want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door &listen to you breathing.
that's where i wanna be..
cheer up, darling.
everything's gonna be alright.
baby, it'll be alright..
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
remember me this way..
every now and then
we find a special friend
who never lets us down.
who understands it all,
reaches out each time you fall.
you're the best friend that i've found..
i'll make a wish for you,
and hope it will come true.
that life will just be kind
to such a gentle mind.
and if you're losing your way,
think back on yesterday,
remember me this way.
remember me this way..
i don't need eyes to see
the love you bring to me,
no matter where i go.
and i know that you'll be there,
forevermore, a part of me,
you're everywhere.
i'll always care
and i'll be right behind your shoulder, watching you.
i'll be standing by your side in all you do.
and i won't ever leave,
as long as you believe.
you just believe..
i know you can't stay,
but part of you will never, ever go away.
your heart will stay..
we find a special friend
who never lets us down.
who understands it all,
reaches out each time you fall.
you're the best friend that i've found..
i'll make a wish for you,
and hope it will come true.
that life will just be kind
to such a gentle mind.
and if you're losing your way,
think back on yesterday,
remember me this way.
remember me this way..
i don't need eyes to see
the love you bring to me,
no matter where i go.
and i know that you'll be there,
forevermore, a part of me,
you're everywhere.
i'll always care
and i'll be right behind your shoulder, watching you.
i'll be standing by your side in all you do.
and i won't ever leave,
as long as you believe.
you just believe..
i know you can't stay,
but part of you will never, ever go away.
your heart will stay..
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
get in my arms, give me some joy.
i wanna hold you tonight,
it'll be alright.
'cause the night is long and i hunt for you.
in this darkest hour, where have you gone to?
won't you come to my side?
i need you tonight..
well in case you failed to notice,
in case you failed to see,
this is my heart bleeding before you,
this is me down on my knees.
these foolish games are tearing me apart.
your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
you're breaking my heart..
Thursday, June 15, 2006
i believe that i swore not to write, ever again, about that particular thing.
i just don't know why it came back to me all of a sudden.
i had a nightmare last night.
i was in the toilet doing my business, and then suddenly there was blood all over my gums. my chin started forming a hole and then i called out loud for help to anyone who could hear me but no one was there.
it was the most horrible nightmare i've ever had since i think a decade ago.
a decade ago, HISTORY.
i can't believe the past is coming back at me. the whole 10 years, back!
i don't know whether i should be happy or sad. joyous or maybe just extremely bad memories, it's just the past. nothing more. at least, if i could put it that way.
whatever it is, i'll try not to care anymore.
i'm going out with lila later to watch she's the man. :)
i just don't know why it came back to me all of a sudden.
i had a nightmare last night.
i was in the toilet doing my business, and then suddenly there was blood all over my gums. my chin started forming a hole and then i called out loud for help to anyone who could hear me but no one was there.
it was the most horrible nightmare i've ever had since i think a decade ago.
a decade ago, HISTORY.
i can't believe the past is coming back at me. the whole 10 years, back!
i don't know whether i should be happy or sad. joyous or maybe just extremely bad memories, it's just the past. nothing more. at least, if i could put it that way.
whatever it is, i'll try not to care anymore.
i'm going out with lila later to watch she's the man. :)
because i feared what i did not know but have wanted to know-
from where I was not before,
to have seen the things
looking in at me from through the open door
and have walked tonight
by myself,
to see the moonlight
and see it as trees
and shapes more fearful,
because I feared
what I did not know
but have wanted to know.
My face is my own, I thought.
But you have seen it
turn into a thousand years.
I watched you cry.
I could not touch you.
I wanted very much to
touch you
but could not.
If it is dark
when this is given to you,
have care for its content
when the moon shines.
My face is my own.
My hands are my own.
My mouth is my own
but I am not.
Moon, moon,
when you leave me alone
all the darkness is
an utter blackness,
a pit of fear,
a stench,
hands unreasonable
never to touch.
But I love you.
Do you love me.
What to say
when you see me.
-Robert Creeley
Monday, June 12, 2006
:)
wow. to think that it's already been 6months.
so there's just you & me. buffet @ sakae, thrill @ the nun.
yes my love. six months full of hardships with a mixture of sweet love.
SIX MONTHS!
and you're still the one.
<3
time flies right? don't you think so?
so there's just you & me. buffet @ sakae, thrill @ the nun.
yes my love. six months full of hardships with a mixture of sweet love.
SIX MONTHS!
and you're still the one.
<3
time flies right? don't you think so?
Saturday, June 10, 2006
complex mind
the hundred year old thing that no one has ever thought of going back to. it just wouldn't go. and i thought it left already but sometimes i can't help but remember how it pinches my heart.
and the thing is, i don't know what could make me feel better.
& you know something funny? i know that pain is the one that reminds us of how far we've gone.
but why is this pain so unbearable?
i watched me fade in your mind,
like fireflies in the morning horizon,
subtle & sleek.
days when i knew you existed .
yet you watched me,
fade like fireflies in the night sky,
constant & endless.
soon denying your existance,
i ran. & then
i said with a smile so faint,
goodbye..
just get out.
Sometimes I wonder why people spend their lives missing things, or people.
and the thing is, i don't know what could make me feel better.
& you know something funny? i know that pain is the one that reminds us of how far we've gone.
but why is this pain so unbearable?
i watched me fade in your mind,
like fireflies in the morning horizon,
subtle & sleek.
days when i knew you existed .
yet you watched me,
fade like fireflies in the night sky,
constant & endless.
soon denying your existance,
i ran. & then
i said with a smile so faint,
goodbye..
just get out.
Sometimes I wonder why people spend their lives missing things, or people.
Friday, June 09, 2006
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
the past is such and isn't really worth going back to.
moving foward is what's important, it's the only thing that exists.
life is really nice, actually. you know the phrase "some people makes the world special just by being in it." you wouldn't believe that this is not only for hanlin, who everyone thinks is my life. it's actually for everyone who i care most about, those who hold their hearts close to mine.
you know who you are. let's just stop all these conflicts and move on..
moving foward is what's important, it's the only thing that exists.
life is really nice, actually. you know the phrase "some people makes the world special just by being in it." you wouldn't believe that this is not only for hanlin, who everyone thinks is my life. it's actually for everyone who i care most about, those who hold their hearts close to mine.
you know who you are. let's just stop all these conflicts and move on..
Monday, June 05, 2006
SOS
i can't help it.
it's haunting me again.
it's coming back-
the nightmares/
hanlin save me..
ineedyouNOW.
idon'twannaGOBACKTHERE..
it's haunting me again.
it's coming back-
the nightmares/
hanlin save me..
ineedyouNOW.
idon'twannaGOBACKTHERE..
greatgreat love. <3
the greatest achievement i've ever had in my whole life: i did my experiment all by myself! with some help by master skinny during the start, of course. but i did it! ahh! i did it! congratulate me anyone?? congratulate me! it's more of an order than a request. hahaha!
hmm, just wanna say,
i love my stupid sotong/ skinny/ siao kia/ honeybunny to bits! :)
ohoh! and i did something really very bad today. while walking pass the market, there was this lil kid who was running to her mummy or whoever, and i was looking at the sky instead of the ground so the kid didn't turn on her brakes, bumped onto my chicken legs and then dropped on the floor! ahhh! it's like the the dumbest thing i've ever done for the week! oh that poor girl. SORRY! :(
there's nothing i can do. i just can't help loving you.. :)
hmm, just wanna say,
i love my stupid sotong/ skinny/ siao kia/ honeybunny to bits! :)
ohoh! and i did something really very bad today. while walking pass the market, there was this lil kid who was running to her mummy or whoever, and i was looking at the sky instead of the ground so the kid didn't turn on her brakes, bumped onto my chicken legs and then dropped on the floor! ahhh! it's like the the dumbest thing i've ever done for the week! oh that poor girl. SORRY! :(
there's nothing i can do. i just can't help loving you.. :)
Saturday, June 03, 2006
artstravaganza rehearsal on thursday. watched it and i all i can say is IT IS NOT GOOD. stayed there till 6 and then off to clementi for dinner with my genniex. saw cheryl waiting for yy outside the salon. ate at kfc &stayed there till like 7 plus and then went home. tiring day! oh, and we hung around corrie's place for awhile while waiting for the time to pass. :)
and the day has arrived. ARTSTRAVAGANZA.
damn it. it was okay at first. everyone was cool. and then the people satrted to go in and some very irritating and fucked-up people came, which ruined my entire fucking day. yeah, they're like the shit outta my ass. FUCK THEM. well aside from that everything turned out to be great in the concert. very very united. and the actual thing is so so different from the rehearsal! a TOTAL TRANSFORMATION! (though there are some people who really shouldn't be in there performing 'cos they look so EWWW)
shit. i'm really really confused! FRUSTRATED!
i just don't get it. i mean, i'm not a bad person. why does this have to happen to me. i read something and then everything in myself changes especially my mood. damn it. i just don't know why i had to get jealous and angry over some things i read over the internet. you know that kind of feeling that without me in their life, everything is entirely perfect. it sucks. :(
grrr. i'm so pissed! STILL! about EVERYTHING!
I HATE MY PERIOD!
i want to drink and drink until i get drunk!
and the day has arrived. ARTSTRAVAGANZA.
damn it. it was okay at first. everyone was cool. and then the people satrted to go in and some very irritating and fucked-up people came, which ruined my entire fucking day. yeah, they're like the shit outta my ass. FUCK THEM. well aside from that everything turned out to be great in the concert. very very united. and the actual thing is so so different from the rehearsal! a TOTAL TRANSFORMATION! (though there are some people who really shouldn't be in there performing 'cos they look so EWWW)
shit. i'm really really confused! FRUSTRATED!
i just don't get it. i mean, i'm not a bad person. why does this have to happen to me. i read something and then everything in myself changes especially my mood. damn it. i just don't know why i had to get jealous and angry over some things i read over the internet. you know that kind of feeling that without me in their life, everything is entirely perfect. it sucks. :(
grrr. i'm so pissed! STILL! about EVERYTHING!
I HATE MY PERIOD!
i want to drink and drink until i get drunk!
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
tragic loss..
on the 31st of May 2006, we made a tragic loss.
our old life, Ghim Moh McDonald's is now closing for obvious reasons.
reason number 1 being: the gmss batch 2003 & 2004 (which are the people that brought excitement to the whole gm) had already graduated.
reason number 2 being: the first few batches after those 2 did hang out there but not as much.
reason number 3 being: the batch after mine didn't really do much on saving our beloved. lastly which is
reason number 4: we used to hang out there ALL THE TIME during our sec 2 after playing volleyball at the cc or anywhere else. but as you know, not all good things lasts, and that is the truth. :( apparently, no one really cried, weeped or bawled over our loss. i could say it was shock that was our first reaction, not sadness. :( and by the way, not the 7 of us were there to send off our Mcdonald's. how sad, right? :(
nothing else to blog, really.
farewell everyone.
farewell, beloved mac mac. :(
our old life, Ghim Moh McDonald's is now closing for obvious reasons.reason number 1 being: the gmss batch 2003 & 2004 (which are the people that brought excitement to the whole gm) had already graduated.
reason number 2 being: the first few batches after those 2 did hang out there but not as much.
reason number 3 being: the batch after mine didn't really do much on saving our beloved. lastly which is
reason number 4: we used to hang out there ALL THE TIME during our sec 2 after playing volleyball at the cc or anywhere else. but as you know, not all good things lasts, and that is the truth. :( apparently, no one really cried, weeped or bawled over our loss. i could say it was shock that was our first reaction, not sadness. :( and by the way, not the 7 of us were there to send off our Mcdonald's. how sad, right? :(
nothing else to blog, really.
farewell everyone.
farewell, beloved mac mac. :(
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