i believe that i swore not to write, ever again, about that particular thing.
i just don't know why it came back to me all of a sudden.

i had a nightmare last night.
i was in the toilet doing my business, and then suddenly there was blood all over my gums. my chin started forming a hole and then i called out loud for help to anyone who could hear me but no one was there.
it was the most horrible nightmare i've ever had since i think a decade ago.

a decade ago, HISTORY.
i can't believe the past is coming back at me. the whole 10 years, back!
i don't know whether i should be happy or sad. joyous or maybe just extremely bad memories, it's just the past. nothing more. at least, if i could put it that way.

whatever it is, i'll try not to care anymore.
i'm going out with lila later to watch she's the man. :)