OMG! i will die if i just keep everything to myself.
the way our minds and hearts work is really complicating and beyond comprehension.
sometimes certain things are just so plain to see but we are blinded. by love, by dreams, by false hopes.
when feelings are involved, things are always easier said than done. although you may know what's good for you but getting down to actually doing what you know is good for you is difficult.
the number of sad people around is definitely more than the number of happy people around.
life is a bitch.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Sunday, March 20, 2005
Saturday, March 19, 2005
hatehateHATE.
DONT TALK TO ME OR ANYTHING
'COS I HATE YOU.
ILOVEYOU-
ME AND MY FRIENDS.
LEAVE US ALONE.
I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE.
EVERYTHING'S SO COMPLICATED.
FRUSTRATING!
'COS I HATE YOU.
ILOVEYOU-
ME AND MY FRIENDS.
LEAVE US ALONE.
I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE.
EVERYTHING'S SO COMPLICATED.
FRUSTRATING!
Friday, March 18, 2005
just READ ON.
FUCK.
i feel so shitty and damned.
FUCK.
yes FUCK.
i'm angry, i'm mad,
I'M PISSED!
just FUCK!
FUCKFUCKFUCK!
think of this and think of that.
i mean whatthefuck is goin on in there?!
okay.
here's a decent message for the most important people in my life:
i know i'm far away and stuff.but it doesn't mean that i'm not there.
I'M THERE! there in your hearts. and i will do everything just to keep US together
iloveyouGUYS.
you know that.
-sighs*
you me us
the other us
us us us,
blahblah.
complicationoftheworld
orRATHER,myLIFE!
i feel so shitty and damned.
FUCK.
yes FUCK.
i'm angry, i'm mad,
I'M PISSED!
just FUCK!
FUCKFUCKFUCK!
think of this and think of that.
i mean whatthefuck is goin on in there?!
okay.
here's a decent message for the most important people in my life:
i know i'm far away and stuff.but it doesn't mean that i'm not there.
I'M THERE! there in your hearts. and i will do everything just to keep US together
iloveyouGUYS.
you know that.
-sighs*
you me us
the other us
us us us,
blahblah.
complicationoftheworld
orRATHER,myLIFE!
Thursday, March 17, 2005
oh and by the way,
um, by the way WHAT?
i don't know what i wanna say.
hmm, me and my brother are talking right now. haha! and i'm laughing like shit. he's kinda asking me silly questions, and it's so weird and funny. bwahaha! and we were looking at the tiffany and co page. ahh! jewelry! so freaking nice! ahh! i don't know. suddenly realised that i actually like jewelry. there's actually A GIRL IN ME! AHAHA! i first thought i'm half gay. WAHAHA! oh gosh, LAME!
hmm, nice layout huh? i didn't make it. haha! but for your info, don't ever ever steal those words at the side okay! THEY'RE MINE! NO ONE ELSE'S! MINE! MWAHAHA!
ahh, hmm. okay. i'm pissed with someone. JUST someone.
BYE!
i don't know what i wanna say.
hmm, me and my brother are talking right now. haha! and i'm laughing like shit. he's kinda asking me silly questions, and it's so weird and funny. bwahaha! and we were looking at the tiffany and co page. ahh! jewelry! so freaking nice! ahh! i don't know. suddenly realised that i actually like jewelry. there's actually A GIRL IN ME! AHAHA! i first thought i'm half gay. WAHAHA! oh gosh, LAME!
hmm, nice layout huh? i didn't make it. haha! but for your info, don't ever ever steal those words at the side okay! THEY'RE MINE! NO ONE ELSE'S! MINE! MWAHAHA!
ahh, hmm. okay. i'm pissed with someone. JUST someone.
BYE!
my inner peace shit.
ahh. today.
we were bored, so we headed to the most comfortable place on earth, STARBUCKS.
spent our whole afternoon slacking there. daydreaming, chit-chatting, eating, drinking our infamous fraps and expresso's. was with my dearest sissy by the way. :)
as i sat at the sofa for hours and hours, my thought was:
today could be the most peaceful day of my life! my mind was completely blank. just me and myself. i wasn't even thinking of my friends or anyone special. i mean, it's weird but it's true! i spent my whole afternoon thinking of nothing but myself and everything that gets near me. memories weren't even part of it.
my coffee, my book and me.
plus the wall of complication- .
full of promises
ANTICIPATION
do i need you or do you need me?
i'm somewhat lost.
curling, swirling.
reaching, taking.
we have come full circles.
a swallow/ a sip/ another cup
YESorNO?
coffee around the world
FEELtheWIND!
thumpaTHUMPA
my life wouldn't be as complicated as this.
much more.
we were bored, so we headed to the most comfortable place on earth, STARBUCKS.
spent our whole afternoon slacking there. daydreaming, chit-chatting, eating, drinking our infamous fraps and expresso's. was with my dearest sissy by the way. :)
as i sat at the sofa for hours and hours, my thought was:
today could be the most peaceful day of my life! my mind was completely blank. just me and myself. i wasn't even thinking of my friends or anyone special. i mean, it's weird but it's true! i spent my whole afternoon thinking of nothing but myself and everything that gets near me. memories weren't even part of it.
my coffee, my book and me.
plus the wall of complication- .
full of promises
ANTICIPATION
do i need you or do you need me?
i'm somewhat lost.
curling, swirling.
reaching, taking.
we have come full circles.
a swallow/ a sip/ another cup
YESorNO?
coffee around the world
FEELtheWIND!
thumpaTHUMPA
my life wouldn't be as complicated as this.
much more.
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
realityHIT.;black&white/GRAY.
excruciating pain
clutching on my back.
i walk, and i stumble.
I FALL.
no one to pull,
no one to lean,
no one to touch,
no one to feel.
black now white
white now black
gray areas
spattered with blood
it's not as innocent as it seems
ALONE-
just me and the breeze.
just YOU and ME.
*DREAM.
clutching on my back.
i walk, and i stumble.
I FALL.
no one to pull,
no one to lean,
no one to touch,
no one to feel.
white now black
gray areas
spattered with blood
it's not as innocent as it seems
ALONE-
just me and the breeze.
just YOU and ME.
*DREAM.
Saturday, March 12, 2005
it's a sad SAD situation.
POOF! gone.
all down the drain like it never happened.
memories in it, forever will stay.
forever remembered,
never to be forgotten.
NOT EVER!
yesterday was super bad. i had mood swings out of nowhere.but then of course, my sweethearts and my 3 mummies made it better. and of course, not forgetting our very good friend xue zhi too! :)
yea, after school we took heavy stuffs to lili's house. cabbed with xue zhi and lili to holland. yep. we planned to meet somewhere at bk to eat at nydc. yea. but when we finally got there we were kinda picky, or rather I was kinda picky. at first it was starbucks, then coffee bean. i saw sush tei and i really wanna go in! then i saw AL DENTE and i was really tempted, but FORGET IT. ahh! HAAGEN DAZS! it's all so tempting! but i knew that xue zhi wanted to eat at coffee bean, so we KINDA settled in there. but oh my gosh! who knew that THAT stupid xue zhi said DELIFRANCE! my knees felt weak so of course, we went one round back to where we started just to eat there.
the queue was long, the manager's shitty and then we ate. first was very serious talk. but we didn't wanna ruin our lunch just because of a someone so we changed the topic to songs, to corn and then to capture the infamous ME eating a big lump of corn. eww! mamma mia, by the way. hah! OH! ALMOST FORGOT! THANKS SO MUCH, XUE ZHI, FOR TREATING US! :) LET US FIND SOME TIME TO TREAT YOU BACK OKAY? :)
yep, waited until 3.30 for the stupid speech. and it was so so boring! ahh! and my results were shitty, PLAIN SHITTY. i passed 3 and failed 3. accounts and ss F9, and science 48! ahh well, at least i improved a lil for my science.
crystal lili and i went down to bukit batok for the sim and the ball. lili's got her sim, while i've got my NOTHING. and i'm overly depressed. there wasn't fate AT ALL. it's GONE.
death_
i'm not gonna leave.
NEVER.
all down the drain like it never happened.
memories in it, forever will stay.
forever remembered,
never to be forgotten.
NOT EVER!
yesterday was super bad. i had mood swings out of nowhere.but then of course, my sweethearts and my 3 mummies made it better. and of course, not forgetting our very good friend xue zhi too! :)
yea, after school we took heavy stuffs to lili's house. cabbed with xue zhi and lili to holland. yep. we planned to meet somewhere at bk to eat at nydc. yea. but when we finally got there we were kinda picky, or rather I was kinda picky. at first it was starbucks, then coffee bean. i saw sush tei and i really wanna go in! then i saw AL DENTE and i was really tempted, but FORGET IT. ahh! HAAGEN DAZS! it's all so tempting! but i knew that xue zhi wanted to eat at coffee bean, so we KINDA settled in there. but oh my gosh! who knew that THAT stupid xue zhi said DELIFRANCE! my knees felt weak so of course, we went one round back to where we started just to eat there.
the queue was long, the manager's shitty and then we ate. first was very serious talk. but we didn't wanna ruin our lunch just because of a someone so we changed the topic to songs, to corn and then to capture the infamous ME eating a big lump of corn. eww! mamma mia, by the way. hah! OH! ALMOST FORGOT! THANKS SO MUCH, XUE ZHI, FOR TREATING US! :) LET US FIND SOME TIME TO TREAT YOU BACK OKAY? :)
yep, waited until 3.30 for the stupid speech. and it was so so boring! ahh! and my results were shitty, PLAIN SHITTY. i passed 3 and failed 3. accounts and ss F9, and science 48! ahh well, at least i improved a lil for my science.
crystal lili and i went down to bukit batok for the sim and the ball. lili's got her sim, while i've got my NOTHING. and i'm overly depressed. there wasn't fate AT ALL. it's GONE.
death_
i'm not gonna leave.
NEVER.
Friday, March 11, 2005
boliao la.
BWAHAHA!
hello!
i'm in the com lab now. hehe..only me, tricia and crystal's group. meaning that corrie, shirley, delphine, chermaine and lili still in class. BWAHAHA! hehe..
they're suffering there while we're enjoying air-con! BWAHAHA! but still quite hot la. haha..
haix. so boring. :( crystal just sneezed. and she's so pissed with the stupid com. and she's banging the mouse now. wahaha! and and, tricia and crystal peeped at what i am writing. ahh! and crystal banged the mouse again. poor mouse. haha!
i'll come back later la. maybe. hehe, if i've got the time. 'cos i'm gonna go get back my ball. argh! have to bring home the stupid lightbox! ahh! die!
yay! the other group is coming up le. yay! haix. but can't sit with them. :(
blog later. bye!
hello!
i'm in the com lab now. hehe..only me, tricia and crystal's group. meaning that corrie, shirley, delphine, chermaine and lili still in class. BWAHAHA! hehe..
they're suffering there while we're enjoying air-con! BWAHAHA! but still quite hot la. haha..
haix. so boring. :( crystal just sneezed. and she's so pissed with the stupid com. and she's banging the mouse now. wahaha! and and, tricia and crystal peeped at what i am writing. ahh! and crystal banged the mouse again. poor mouse. haha!
i'll come back later la. maybe. hehe, if i've got the time. 'cos i'm gonna go get back my ball. argh! have to bring home the stupid lightbox! ahh! die!
yay! the other group is coming up le. yay! haix. but can't sit with them. :(
blog later. bye!
Thursday, March 10, 2005
fate and love;memories.
fate has it between my ball and me.
yea. MY BALL. think whatever you wanna think 'cos i don't care. whatever it is, it's still my ball! and i'll be back with my precious ball tomorrow! yay! all thanks to my dearest crystal for speaking up. without her, i don't think i'll ever see my ball again.
and by the way, you may say that it's just a ball, but that ball has so many memories in it that can never be erased including heartbreaks and tragic so don't ever think that it's just a stupid ball 'cos IT'S NOT!
funny, sad, happy, weird, boring, EXTREMELY HUMOROUS, and love. it's all there. :)
cabbed to ica with corrie, crystal and lili. yep. and we only took around 15 minutes to finish everything. then bukit batok, the bus journey was damn long, but i didn't sleep. we went there, walked around, FOUND MY BALL, then yellow, lastly kfc. i cabbed home, they took the mrt. and the cab fare was so so expensive. argh! freaking $12!
oh, and this song's nice. i like it. :)
for me, for you.
We both know that I shouldn't be here,
This is wrong.
And baby, it's killin' me, it's killin' you,
Both of us trying to be strong.
I've got somewhere else to be,
Promises to keep,
Someone else who loves me,
And trusts me fast asleep.
I've made up my mind,
There is no turning back.
She's been good to me,
And she deserves better than that.
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do,
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you.
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie,
To show no emotion when you start to cry.
I can't let you see what you mean to me,
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free,
We're not meant to be.
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do,
To turn around and walk away, pretending I don't love you.
I know we'll meet again,
Fate has a place and time.
So you can get on with your life,
I've got to be cruel to be kind.
Like Dr. Zhivago,
All my love I'll be sending,
And you will never know,
'Cause there can be no happy ending.
Maybe another time, another day.
As much as I want to, I can't stay.
btw,
happy birthday's to
kenneth and jenkins
on the 7th
margareth
on the 9th
_____________
yea. MY BALL. think whatever you wanna think 'cos i don't care. whatever it is, it's still my ball! and i'll be back with my precious ball tomorrow! yay! all thanks to my dearest crystal for speaking up. without her, i don't think i'll ever see my ball again.
and by the way, you may say that it's just a ball, but that ball has so many memories in it that can never be erased including heartbreaks and tragic so don't ever think that it's just a stupid ball 'cos IT'S NOT!
funny, sad, happy, weird, boring, EXTREMELY HUMOROUS, and love. it's all there. :)
cabbed to ica with corrie, crystal and lili. yep. and we only took around 15 minutes to finish everything. then bukit batok, the bus journey was damn long, but i didn't sleep. we went there, walked around, FOUND MY BALL, then yellow, lastly kfc. i cabbed home, they took the mrt. and the cab fare was so so expensive. argh! freaking $12!
oh, and this song's nice. i like it. :)
for me, for you.
We both know that I shouldn't be here,
This is wrong.
And baby, it's killin' me, it's killin' you,
Both of us trying to be strong.
I've got somewhere else to be,
Promises to keep,
Someone else who loves me,
And trusts me fast asleep.
I've made up my mind,
There is no turning back.
She's been good to me,
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do,
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you.
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie,
To show no emotion when you start to cry.
I can't let you see what you mean to me,
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free,
We're not meant to be.
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do,
To turn around and walk away, pretending I don't love you.
I know we'll meet again,
Fate has a place and time.
So you can get on with your life,
I've got to be cruel to be kind.
Like Dr. Zhivago,
All my love I'll be sending,
And you will never know,
'Cause there can be no happy ending.
Maybe another time, another day.
As much as I want to, I can't stay.
btw,
happy birthday's to
kenneth and jenkins
on the 7th
margareth
on the 9th
_____________
Sunday, March 06, 2005
greetings!
happy birthday
to these people:
ap-01march2005
clement-02march2005
bonn (bro!)-03march2005
lihui and corrie
today!
princess too!
-her 18/debut-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CORRIE AND LILI
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TWO!
:)
to these people:
ap-01march2005
clement-02march2005
bonn (bro!)-03march2005
lihui and corrie
today!
princess too!
-her 18/debut-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CORRIE AND LILI
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU TWO!
:)
life is BUT a dream.
you gotta be kidding me!
screwed.
i've already stopped crying, because i have already cried enough tears to reach the eiffel tower. but still, my heart weighs a hundred tons, and my mind wouldn't stop the flashbacks of how painful it used to be. isn't it such a mean thing to do? to give me such a big blow that i might be doing it again for the second time? that my everydays would be as cranky as before, suffering my whole life with another dreadful scar? could this be for real, or is this all a dream? because if this is really for real, and it is all happening right now, i have too many questions in my life unanswered including this: why is this happening to me?
and you're right. nothing's perfect.
i'm me.
screwed.
i've already stopped crying, because i have already cried enough tears to reach the eiffel tower. but still, my heart weighs a hundred tons, and my mind wouldn't stop the flashbacks of how painful it used to be. isn't it such a mean thing to do? to give me such a big blow that i might be doing it again for the second time? that my everydays would be as cranky as before, suffering my whole life with another dreadful scar? could this be for real, or is this all a dream? because if this is really for real, and it is all happening right now, i have too many questions in my life unanswered including this: why is this happening to me?
and you're right. nothing's perfect.
i'm me.
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