i'm all DONE! yay!

yipee! my layouts done! ahh! i started last night, and yay! i'm done, i'm done i'm done! whoppee! i'm so happy! wahaha!

hmm. lemme tell you bout what happened this week.

monday.
after school was supposed to go home with lili, but she said she wanted to go buy her sly cd. i suggested her to bring along the rest. then blah blah. dunno why it took so long for us to go. was waiting for shirley and delphine or whatever i think. in the end, me lili and crystal went. trish, cherm and those two stayed behind.

eugenia took the bus with us. ahh! then it rained soon after she alighted! ahh! we had to run okay! ahh! and we were so drenched! wahh! and i look like a mushroom because of my stupid hair! ahh! damn. haha! and crystal kept laughing at me. wahaha!

then blahblah. walked around heeren. bought that sly cd, walked, looked, took neos FINALLY! bwahaha! took sticker and card. =D bought rock choco's from mini toons, and my hotdog! harhar, and i forgot to give back cry's maths tys. wahaha! sorry. :)

tuesday.
went to boon's house to take his comics. lili wants it. hmm, then decided to find new skin for phiney's blog. check it out! haha.. anyway, phiney is delphine. that's my new nick for her. ;)

wednesday.
wahaha! i skipped chinese b! yipee! wahaha! 'cos i had bio test. blehx! haha! after that the gang split into dunno how many halves. me and chermaine cutie went to clementi. i wanted to buy that accounts book but we can't find it so bought another kind instead. but it's also exactly the same, just bigger in size. hmm anyway, we took a really long time at the pen station. i wouldn't wanna give up on finding that fantastic black pen. ahh! and i found it at the last minute! yay! it was all alone, and we're so so fated. ;)

hmm, i was hunting for a mechanical pencil, and i saw this really cool, cute one. ahh! but it was too expensive! and chermaine forbade me to buy it. haha! oh and btw, we saw the initial d car! ahh! at first i was not really interested in it, but cherm told me the story until it made me wanna watch the upcoming initial d movie! ahh! ;)

thursday?
haha! it was sort of a good and bad day. i sat outside the office. i was given the special treatment by mrs yeo though, with the chair, table and all. she's real nice. :) hmm, everyone who passed by me said my work looks great, and i draw real well and all. wahaha! funny. it was all bullshit!

chermaine joined me when it was almost recess. grr that miss yeo. so mean. grr! and so once again, it was the two of us. haha! we chatted non-stop while shading, and blah. those stupid guys, kelvin neo boon chung and andrew plus others kept disturbing us! haha! say we artist. haha! and they even told me it is nice sitting outside for the rest of the day, watching the grass grow.

after school was art, i was the last one who left. and erm, went to nushs for their napfa run. i planned to run 2-3 rounds, but my mother number one didn't allow me. :( so mean. ahh anyway, it was ok. :) after that went back to school, hung around the volleyball court there, see them train. jiao lian talked to us, disturb us, and even scared ME! grr! haha!

friday.
was supposed to sit outside the office 'cos i didn't finish my work again. wahaha! the night before, i thought i lost my art! ahh! i panicked! called lili, messaged miss yeo without recieving any reply. grr. hmm, but i found it in the art room. wahaha! i managed to finish it all by the end of the day.

stayed at the guide den. was with jie, genia joined in later. did some sanding of poles, blahblah.. hmm, went to mac. crystal, lili, trish, edmund and dom were there. then blahblah. sorry hor jie, didn't go back with you. hmm, talked talked, they played vball outside mac. then that stupid dom go and video me! ahh so ugly! :( i was caught rubbing my nose! eee! :(

went cc, he went home, blah. see them play, blah. left me lili and cry in the end. wanted to go dolphin there, the karaoke place with air-con, but it was still closed. :( started drizzling, sat under the rain, talk talk. went home. :)

saturday.
all bull la. did nothing but crap, and do my layout. :)

sunday.
ate out. did nothing again but do my layout. and ta daaa! :)

happy birthday
gabriel ! ;)

LONG..

and here i am again. damn. my layout sucks. i've no time to change it. ahh! just bear with it for the moment. i'll try to change it soon.

yea well anyway, yesterday was pretty fun. went to ghim moh mac around 2 plus to meet crystal, jasmine and tricia. then waited awhile for him, and off we went to the cc.

there were quite a number of guys down there already. i don't know them, but i saw some familiar faces. at first my mother number 3, crystal chan, did not allow me to play volleyball 'cos of blahblah. harhar! so yea, i went to shoot hoops myself. then blahblah, joey came, the girls are at one side, the boys at the other. jasmine has tuition, so she went off first. the three of us went to the market to eat.

we ate at the dessert shop. at first i didn't know what to order. i looked around and i don't know what the hell were those so i just ordered red bean. =D we talked and talked, blah blah. ahh! then crystal brought up the topic about some fishball noodles that are really delicious! ahh! then she persuaded us to eat. haha! since the way she said it was tempting us, we went to buy our own bowl. =D

ahh! and she was so damn right! the fishballs are nice! yay! haha! but crystal didn't eat, 'cos she said her grandmama cooked for her. so after eating, crystal went home first.. me and tricia went back to the cc. when we got back, there were a dozen people playing there already! ahh! i think more than a dozen! aha! we had very limited space to play volleyball (my mother no. 3 allowed me to play in the end. =D ) 'cos they were having a match. wahaha! we sat down, watched, and it was quite funny 'cos i-dunno. haha! just funny. haha!

blahblah, it was already turning dark. some flying thing came, more, and MORE! ahh! it was like SNOWING! and the one naked guy with the tattoo said, "this is the first time i saw singapore snowing". wahaha! that wasn't the only funny part la. haha! they even went to video those flying thing. so boliao. haha!

everyone stopped playing already, crystal came, we hung out at somewhere inside the cc. then blah. oh! there's this guy, so funny! all the guys were teasing him 'cos he wore his boxers with his briefs inside! wahaha! and you know what his reason is? haha! he said 'cos if you wear boxers, that thing will stand, then people will see especially GIRLS! wahaha! so he wore his briefs inside for extra safety. wahaha! so idiotic. ahh, blahblah. around 8 i think, went home.

ahh! everything was fine yesterday when i went home. but i woke up this morning having an aching EVERYTHING! ahh! i think i moved pretty damn much yesterday.
ahah! or maybe i've not exercised for too long already. wahaha! :P

anyway, anyhow, all is not forgotten.

just things, and more things.

lemme tell you something important first.
happy birthday
hui yi JIE!
belated- :(
sorry i couldn't celebrate your birthday with you. :(


hmm.
another thing.

lemme just tell you what's deep within.

i've been collecting broken hearts and gathering them up into my arms, always trying to
hide them under every forced smile.

reliving the times when i first realised my crushed dreams, when i picked up the pieces i never realized i had dropped along the way.
and then, everything came full circle. and it was suddenly apparent that i am losing and finding parts of myself all of the time.

wishing for old faces, stimulating conversation, intangibile decisions.
plus, internal exploration leaving me with a greater quantity of questions there will never be answers to.

not much has changed.
and you know what? i can assure you that no matter what you think, none of you can actually understand what the heck I'm talking about.

idon'tknowhowtomendthis

oh btw,
belated happy birthday, you.
i wish i could celebrate your birthday with you.
but i can't.. :'(

`- it's all been done.

the days i'm gone.

ahh! okay.
five days of no updating officially.
but it feels like i didn't update for so long already. think it's 'cos i've been typing crap on my previous entries. but anyhow, i think i shall tell you guys what's been happening to my life.

hmm. lemme recall.
there was one day, end of march, all the sec three's went to this camp.
um, we went to chinese garden. ahh! it was real fun. first was kayaking. partnered edwin. then we were like, always going the wrong direction. haha! and we were so damn wet already! oh! i was with tricia almost the whole day, 'cos we were split into 3 groups.

yea, so after kayaking was dragon boat. the boat kept wanting to drop us into the water, and i held tricia's hand a lot of times! haha! hmm, then rafting, me and tricia didn't do anything. 'cos i don't really know how to tie. actually i know, i'm just too lazy to bend down. after they finished tying the whole thing, i don't know what has gotten into tricia to ask me to sit on the tires of the so-called 'boat'. haha! hmm, but in the end we did it. hah! we sat there, and the two guys kept rowing, tricia was slacking and rowing, and i kept kicking! haha! 'cos my arms are tired. haha! we raced, and we won. my shoe got stuck, half of my body fell into the water, i left my shoe but the instructor helped me take it. :)

ah then blahblah. when we reached ghim moh i went to tricia's house to bathe, 'cos i can't stand being so dirty! eew! and damn we had a stupid english course ya know? grr, so boring. met up with crystal, yea she didn't go. then blahblah.

err, that saturday. RAINING. damn. i wanted to go to holland v for my cup of frap but damn! hmm, went queensway with that dummy. blahblah. wanted to cut my hair but in the end didn't. went to mac, crystal jasmine and tricia were there. crapped a lil, went home. damn, my hair's growing like shit.

um, the rest are blahblah's. oh! i've been going to chinese b already. have to get at least 50% attendance. =D no choice. hmm, and i didn't go to school today 'cos blahblah. secret. =D

the guide to nowhere.

sometimes it just hurts
well, it always does.
i just don't understand, WHY.
is this love not worth?

it just FUCKING hurts
because all the pain is inside
and i just won't talk til it's all done.

such an IDIOT.

the love with no return.

damn! i'm wide awake.

there ain't no diskette around the house.
(so how am i supposed to get my work done?)
ain't no mommy nagging around.
(uh, yeah. wait till tomorrow.)
ain't no busybody walking up and down.

peaceful night.
sweet surrender.

and so i thought it was.

Everything i know,and anywhere i go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love