adios.

NOW AT TUMBLR.
; & leave the rest behind.

upside down

“ As long as the sun continues to shine,
there’s a place in my heart for you. ”

ZZZ

it can be love when it hurts.

it seems all of these words,
couldn't be further from the truth.

; and face all my fears.

even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes.
in order to be free, you must learn how to release the hurt, release the fear, and most importantly refuse to entertain the old pain.

the energy you take in hanging on is holding you back from a new life.
so learn, and don't let people walk over you for the rest of you life.

FAITH.

cocooning yourself in this harsh harsh world.
envelope massive thoughts and find peace in life.

the beginning at the end.

25th March 2008,
wednesday.
with class clique - kt & dh.


text said meeting was at 1pm. and i dunno why sf didnt know that when we say 1pm, it actually means 1.30pm - 2pm. lol! and he arrived early! luckily i abandoned my comfy bed early and reached around 1.15pm. we roamed around raffles and there was nowhere to sit 'cos it was lunch time and everywhere was packed! ej arrived next and then slowly the rest came.



mind's cafe was great! and i tell you ah. i lost every game i played, cos according to tan keelin..

KL: "eh, wanna know how to truly enjoy your game anot??"
everyone: "HOW HOW??"
KL: "just play with jvia la! confirm enjoy one, cos you'll surely win. she ah, suppose to snatch she scream and watch everyone snatch. suppose to pay attention to the game, she busily laughing. SHE DAMN SLOW AH I TELL YOU."

NB. I WHERE GOT SLOW SIA. LOLOL!

eh but im not that bad at playing board games lor. i remembered winning one game.
DIRTY MINDS. HEEHEEHEE!
eh as dirty as it sounds, its not ok. whoever won is the most innocent leh. well thats according to the game.
HAHA! SEE IM NOT A HORNY GIRL OHKKK! =D

oh and then it was walking to the riverside to slack while deciding on where to go.


and wanted to go to timbre but plan was terminated 'cos we walked the wrong way. and we made a horrible horrible mistake of going to lau pa sat for dinner because the satay people totally ruined everyone's appetite, even birdy's!

walked from there to esplanade, and slacked at the usual place 'til we got bored and then it was home sweet home.

OH OH! and at that time we were slacking at esplanade, i really really missed that kang teck leh!
OMG KT! WE MISS YOU ALOT ALOT ALOT LEH, LIKE SERIOUSLY!
NO JOKE NO LIE! :(:(:(

26th March 2008,
thursday.
finally, out with lala. :)
kfc for our early dinner, and we caught..

absolute chick flick, but really worth watching.

and i seriously envy her lor. just look at what she's wearing!

i love the whole combi! especially the coat. omfg nice la!
i like her bag as well, very cute and simple yet loud.


i like this screenshot but you know what i like more?
THE SHOES. i absolutely adore them!! the moment i saw it i was drooling and i was only focusing on the shoes instead of the movie. lol!


imagine if i have these much shoes? WOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW I'D BE SOOOOOOOOO HAPPY EVERYDAY LOR. different shoes everyday. lol!
WHOEVER IS WILLING TO GET ME THESE MUCH SHOES I'D GLADLY MARRY YOU. LOLOL!!


but.. eh friend. why you dress up like a dog sia. lol!
i like the colorful layers underneath but why the horrendous overall?? lol!!
dunno la i just find it damn ugly. lol!!

okay enough bout the movie, more bout us.
shopped and then starbucks for some chitchatchill before heading home.

yaya act chio. thank you.

for you, girlf.

friend, I'm sorry for your loss. I wish I can be there for you at this very difficult time.
I cannot say I know exactly how you feel. but I definately feel for you. the pain and devastation you feel is something I understand.
for now you may feel as if life just throws shit at you, that nothing can ever be the same again. pessimism running through your veins, something you cant seem to get rid because you lost that someone who you really really loved all your life.
but no matter what my dearest girlf, remember to get back at your feet after crying your heart out. remember that there's always a tomorrow to look forward to. and remember that life goes on no matter how miserable and empty you feel inside.
he may be gone physically, but forever will he be in your heart and in your memories. it's something that can't be taken away from you.
now is the time for mourning and grieving, and after this will be the time for healing.
and when that time comes, be strong, for tomorrows will always be better. just believe that okay.

no more bitterness. :)

waiting hurts. forgetting hurts. but not knowing which decision to take is the worse suffering.

but sometimes, we have to let go to appreciate what there is to hold on to.

I wrote this for you

it's not easy to love someone. but you know what's more painful than that? letting go, because you'll have to face the fact that maybe you were wrong. maybe you are stupid enough to think that love can beat everything. and maybe also because that when you let someone go, a part of you goes with him too. and you're never quite sure if you can ever be the same again. you're almost afraid to try.

but now i want to. it's time to heal all these wounds. the hurt, the pain, the tears that never seemed to end. it's time to love myself again. time to cherish what i've got instead of lingering and hoping endlessly for something that is so ridiculously hopeless.
true enough that no one can save us, and i've done my part and i'm pretty sure you don't really care anymore. all the waiting for your messages and the expected disappointments, it all has got to be stopped right now.
I know I caused all this mess in the first place, and so I'm sorry for everything even though I know it's all too late. I'm still sorry and I'll always be sorry because I know that time can't turn itself back to where it all started. and the memories and the times we used to spend at our favorite places, I'll keep them safely here in my heart, because no matter what you'll always, always be someone i hold in my heart dearly.

and now, it's time for me to go.
time for me to
MOVE ON
and
LET IT GO.

LET IT ALL GO.

the genting videos galore.

a day before phiney's birthday, sally and rachie crashed at my place. and as requested, i got the long awaited videos.

now whoever does NOT laugh at this



and this



is siao, cos this is the most hilarious (and embarrassing for me) thing i can never ever forget in my entire life. look at how phiney laugh in the end of the video. damn fcking funny can!! LOL!

i didn't know what i was thinking, or maybe i always don't know what i am thinking most of the time but this is by far, the most embarrassing and hilarious of all.
i think one day when ive kids ill show them these videos and tell them how mommy spent that one night at genting getting all crazy and hyped up. lol!

oh and there's another one, featuring the milkshake girl, ME!
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and TADA!
nada, because that's way too embarrassing la. those two videos are already enough to scramble anyone's balls so NO WAY, I AM NOT GOING TO SHOW YOU THE MILKSHAKE VIDEO. LOL!
yeah la, im kill joy. eh but please understand la, i need to save myself some face. HAHAHAHAHA!

k la enough about me me me.
how bout the hokkien girls! they did a great job as well. =D



take one,


take two,


take three..


..and finally!


whoever finds hokkien singing a turn on can go jio these two.
BROTHER!! I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

ah lian-ty whose definition for dancing is swinging her arms.
HAHA! =D



and and, wah. chen mei yi and her cheena face. HAHAHAHAHA!



ending this post with "the frame with a million crystals."



haha..toodles! :)

crept under the sheets with a tear stained face after accidentally opening a box of letters.
happy chinese new year man!

eh, like wth. i need to sleep la, seriously.
i'm so god damn tired. 3-4hrs of sleep ONLY these few days, even when school has already started. i can't even sleep in freaking lectures like how i used to! & it was a good thing that i caught some sleepo for 30mins during tutorial. LIKE OMG, how the fuck am i going to survive this?! im so freaking tired yet my body's torturing me. i feel like pulling out my soul and throwing it in space for a lil while, YA KNOW?!

SO BLOODY IRRITATING I TELL YOU.

& im so cranky and whiny these few days.
like experiencing menopause stage already.

PLEASE BE HAPPIER, JVIA!
YOU REALLY NEED TO BE HAPPIER!


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very late genting post.

oieee you people. ive finally finished the genting trip.
yeah, i know. very very late. SORRY LA.
anyway, see it here. haha!

genting day 1,
genting day 2a,
genting day 2b,
genting day 2c,
genting day 3.

ill be updating the rest of the fun i had soon. :):)