hurts

im all alone and in this forever. i gotta get back & get it together 'cos you're never gonna get anywhere this way when you're walking in circles everyday the same way. im not quite sure where this is going. maybe another panic attack with no signs of slowing down. im still breathing heavy heavy breathing, with my stomach in my throat choking on the feeling. im losing all i have to offer 'cos nothing here makes sense. im lost & so scared. im numb & overwhelmed on this "hotel" mattress.

just tell me im alright, tell me im ok, tell me anything at all to make this feeling go away. 'cos i love the way that i fall asleep with my head in my hands, everything drifts by me so slowly. im only halfway home, alone and lonely. so go ahead & tell me i'll be alright. just touch me, hold me.

hurts like it's so contagious
off the mark & a little off key. also so overdramatic 'cos this is completely out of my hands & out of control. so you take the chance to take it all. & then i've forgotten everything i know.
im lost, im scared, im sick, im not well & i can never let go.