when you walk away
i count the steps that you take.
do you see how much i need you right now?
after nearly1/2 a year, your heart throbs from both excitement & fear. mixed emotions i must say. you fear communication breakdown, same old quarrels, awkard silences, accidental body contacts, etc.
silly me, worrying about such things. the day spent was great, the movie was good, but still, all you get are disappointments & hopelessness. 'cos at the end of the day no matter how much you both had fun, the hurt & the pain flows through your veins. no matter how much you both enjoyed, goodbye's still happen. & the endings always suck.
yes, silly me. feeling unnecessary fear when all i have to be scared of was the sucky feeling of parting. hiding behind the wall, looking at him walk further & further away from you, until he leaves. & then you breakdown & cry. :'(
i love you, & i don't doubt that like before. not anymore.
but it's too late..
& i feel so lost again.
:'( when you're gone.
