making new friends, in a new environment with everything around you new, tendency of moving forward to what the future may bring gives you the excitement. & then you slowly forget what it used to be like a few months back. a few months back sounds so long, when in fact when you're the one who's looking back, you think it was just a blink of an eye. how the first date went by, how soft & tender his lips felt the first time yours touched his, how you can see yourself swimming in his eyes even when you're a distance away from him, how everything around us seemed beauiful when you're around.
but let's face it, a few months back is still time passed. & there's no way we can get back to those sad-but-you-still-make-me-the-happiest days of my life. we make mistakes, we move on. but sometimes moving on is easier said than done. you try to look ahead, make new friends, meet new people which we can simply put as "trying to find a replacement in your heart just to ease the pain." you find all the trouble in doing everything you could to feel better when you realise that what's wandering around is not you but your cold & lifeless soul.
pictures, only still moments of you & me captured by a click. the smile & embrace. the warmth it gives even with just a glance of it. hard copies can be burned down, turned into ashes. but memories etched in your mind, can never be erased by a thing called the delete button.
you may not be the one i think of all the time but i think about you every moment, wherever i go- whether i'm staring in the midst of the air at home, during boring sleepy lectures, the loud & laugh-infected classroom, a noise polluted canteen, wandering my way through the crowded mall or simply waiting for the next train to arrive, you're there. though you're not physically around, i carry you in my heart, always, all the time.
