ahG once said that moments you spent with the one you loved most are the ones you're supposed to keep and treasure and are not supposed to be replaced for they the only thing that no one can ever take away. but what if those wonderful moments, those deeply etched in your memory, are those that makes you cry and steals your joy away? what do you do then? and when you've decided to throw it all away, nothing in you just seem to want to let go. so, what do you do when it hurts so bad?
and they say, sometimes you both are better apart, even though it eats every skin and flesh of you. that distance and time can make the pain just disappear one day. well you know ive tried so many times, and then it made me feel better. or so i thought it did. because just when you start to feel that "you're okay", he appears in your mind again and it tears you, 'cos you're still so empty inside no matter what.
and the worst thing, the worse of the worst, is actually being with that person, so close together physically- the warmth he gives, the laughter, the moment. and at the end of the day, you say your farewells, and you know truly in your heart that those things all just adds up to nothing.
now tell me. why does everything happen for a reason? and why do things like this happen? i would really really wanna know because maybe that reason might just be the one that would help me put all the pieces together.
oh
FUCK GOODBYES.
