i was alone that afternoon and for the entire night. right then and there i felt my knees trembling. i couldn't look up 'cos i don't want to see those faces again. the faces that gave humiliation and disgrace to my name and me. i was embarrased in front of many people whom i know only by names and faces. the laughter that filled the air was burning me yet i was so helpless. helpless enough to just bow my head down and accept the humiliation i recieved. i was alone, so alone. i didn't feel any of my friends there. i didn't feel anyone there. it felt like i was in a secluded place, trapped. where no one would care, no one would bother how much pain i'm feeling. and at that time i just wanted to run away as fast as i can, to find that person who would take me in his arm openly and will never push me away. i wish he was there. i wish you were there, sotong. :(
and it's not because she was there and she looked at me with her star-like eyes. it wasn't because he and she were there. it was all because of the past that i still could not forget. where it says down there when i walked down memory lane, that i was stupid enough to be decieved by you. the thing is, when she looked at me and i looked at her, i felt like the dumbest person in the world, looking into the person's eyes whom i've known long enough to sing praises about her, and not long enough to know who she really is. i've seen her, finally. i've seen the real her and not from just pictures. and i think i've had enough, 'cos i really couldn't take it anymore.
you're like the vampire, sucking all my blood from my veins.
taking all my strength from me, knowing so well that i'm weak.
you're the selfish vampire, the one who has left many scars in me.
