you know, day by day, i just feel as though everyone i love is drifting away from me, bit by bit. this is another of my "i-don't-know-why"entries. so many questions i have to ask.
those who are with me everyday. we did almost everything funny and cute and silly and stupid even serious times together but we just slowly fell apart. disappointment will just slowly rip your heart until you can't feel anymore. that's the saddest thing.
another thing.
one last thing, and of course DEFINATELY not the least. the one who's so near yet so, SO FAR. i hear your voice, i see you smile, i hear you laugh. i see everything, but all's not meant for me. i have been planning to start anew with everything, but i FEEL and THINK that something out there is stopping me. so many misunderstandings, so many things we missed out on. when's the right time to have a heart to heart?
i know it's a sin not being contented with one's life. but let me ask you something: if you are already contented with your own life, not wanting anything anymore, then is that still called LIFE? i thought life is where you enjoy not everything you have? i thought life is where you meet challenges everyday? i thought life is where you feel to have a need of something you couldn't have? i thought life is where everyone has to suffer even just a tiny bit?
what is life, really??
yes, it's almost a year. half of it was full of happiness and sometimes doubts and anger with love too, but half of it is full of sadness, obssession, regret. ahh, i don't know. i don't know i don't know i don't know.
well, my life isn't exactly that sucky. i still have people who stick by me 24/7. and i love love love them so much. people like LIHUI and CRYSTAL. the very loud MEGS and of course the great superstar AIKO. they're the great ones, the best of the best.
and not forgetting HUIYI and SHEENA too. <3
ahh, there's actually a good side in my life, and yes i'm happy. :)
oh and by the way, my results are shitty so don't bother asking.
