corrie & lila's 17th.

on the 6th, we celebrated lila & corrie's birthday. :)
had dinner at chicago's steakhouse, took neoprints &kbox-ed 'til midnight. :)



corrie & i.






with the bitch i love to camwhore with,
my fave f-er. :)



birthday girls with the cake.
MAKE A WISH! :)


neo! :):):)


star light, star bright,
first star i see tonight,
i wish i may, i wish i might,
have the wish i wish tonight.
HAPPY17TH BIRTHDAY,
YOU TWO! :)

look back or move forward?

there comes a time when every life goes off course. in this desperate moment, you must choose your direction. will you fight to stay on the path? will others tell you who you are or will you label yourself? will you be haunted by your choice or will you embrace your new path? each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.

there comes a time when every life goes off course. in this desperate moment, who will you be? will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected? will you reach out? will you face your greatest fears with bravery and move forward with faith? Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

there are two tragedies in life: one is to lose your heart's desire, the other is to gain it. you know, sometimes people disappoint you. i get that. i kinda expect that. but what if you wake up one day and realise you're the disappointment? :(

OUCH!

pain, it comes in all forms. the small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain that we live with everyday. then there is the kind of pain you just can't ignore, a level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else, makes the rest of your world fade away until all we can think about is how much we hurt, how we manage our pain is up to us. we anaesthetize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it, and for some of us the best way to manage pain is to just push through it.

you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. there are no solutions, no easy answers. you just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. most of the time pain can be managed, but sometimes the pain gets you when you least expect it, hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. pain you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it, and life always makes more.

this pain i feel, you will never understand!

my 17th!

what pigs love to eat. =D


engrossed with the tv show.
ugh! i look super UN-GLAM! :C


the pigs. who's the cutest?
hint: MEMEME! hahaha!

the result of boredom.


TRIPLE S!
Super Spastic Shots!



the MAKE-A-WISH process


the ice-cream cake, before & after!
yeah, we eat like piggo's!


1, 2 & 3!

diamonds crystal are is a girl's best friend!


the wild side of me.
okay pleeeaaasssseeee don't freak out.
I'M STRAIGHT! hahaha!

ehh, okay. that's all folks! :) :) :)

cause i can't show my face

im holding on to your pictures on my telephone, & i know that i should let you go but it's hard to break away.
i ask around & i wonder what you're doing now, but i hear that you've been going out a little more these days.

well i can't lie that i think from time to time, how you're doing.
well don't hang up, cause what i really meant to say is-
when everything is wrong & nothing's going right,
just know that i'm not hard to find.
so just say the word & i'll race to you tonight
& i'll be right there by your side.

appeal.

Oh, I am very weary,
Though tears no longer flow;
My eyes are tired of weeping,
My heart is sick of woe;

My life is very lonely,
My days pass heavily,
I'm wearing of repining,
Wilt thou not come to me?

Oh, didst thou know my longings
For thee, from day to day,
My hopes, so often blighted,
Thou wouldst not thus delay!

-Anne Bronte

wind me up!

stuck in my head:
wind it up - gwen stefani

"Everytime the bass bangs,
Realize it calls your name.
Let the beat wind you up,
And don't stop till your time is up.
Get in line now, wind it up!"

"I guess we can't really complain about karma.
It's not unfair. It's not unexpected.
It just evens the score."

runaway with my hope.

had food marathon on tuesday & wednesday.
OMG, i know. fatty pig like me should stop eating. =]

sushi tei with corrie, tuesday evening. sat there and slowly ate our noodles 'til 7. she felt like eating fondue, so i hopped to haagen dazs across the street. YUMYUM! seduced her while eating, which always doesn't work. ohoh, and we looked as if we were out on a date! LOL.

out with tina, wednesday. ichiban boshi for lunch & then headed down to IMM to meet miss Kyeo. :) chatchatchat at the coffee club 'til 5:30pm & she dropped us off at bugis. ela came &we stayed at tcc 'til 10:30pm. slacked & had ♥to♥ with tins at the poolside.

oh! did i mention that she stayed over for 2days? :):):) she just left. had a really great super-fun time with her. :)

ugh, hope i'll be able to hop around outside tomorrow with tins & kyeo as planned.
yeah, i'd rather stay out &have coffee tea & (i want to say milk) vodka with anyone i could think off, even though i hate the attention people gives me all the time (that i want to slap their faces and pull out their eyeballs!). I'M SO BORED AT HOME, all by myself! :(

stuck in my head:
wherever you will go - the calling

"If I could, then I would,
I'll go wherever you will go.
Way up high or down low,
I'll go wherever you will go."

I know now, just quite how,
My life and love might still go on.
In your heart, in your mind,
I'll stay with you for all of time.

drink, drank, drunk!

stuck in my head:
show stopper - danity kane

"Bet you ain't never seen,
Chicks ridin' this clean.
Louis Vuitton seats,
We do it deadly.
This how we keep it poppin',
Make sure that bass knockin'.
So when you see us ridin',
We call it show stoppin'."

i feel so hyper right now. but i cant jump or anything, damn it. oh and that stupid corrie made me feel like drinking after she told me she felt like drinking. seems like the alcoholic in me didn't die off when i actually thought it did. xD i told her that we can go to a 7eleven and then pretend to be 18. if we dont pass i'll use my crutches to hit the person's head &then we'll run off together.
okay that's the lamest story i've ever told. hmm anyhows, we're meeting for dinner at sushi tei around 7-ish. :) you better not be late LEONG! LOL! ;)

CREEPY.

stuck in my head:
fixing a broken heart - indecent obsession

"You really know where to start,
Fixing a broken heart.
You really know what to do.
Your emotional tools can cure any fool,
Whose draems have broken apart.
Fixing a broken heart."

slept at 5 last night finishing up the skin.
quite satisfied, though there were a few minutes i felt like something was behind me. &then there was once i heard a cat meow-ing very loudly, which as usual gave me the creeps ever since mrs. aidil told us about the snickering-cat story. omg, it scared the shit outta me.
ahh, i'm a lil scared right now. going off going off!! BYEBYE.

ps, crystal! i know you're laughing your head off while reading this 'cos you cant stand my humji-ness. hahaha!

happy cny!

stuck in my head:
tell me - p diddy feat. christina aguilera

"Tell me, what you thinking about,
When your hands is all on me.
Cause I've been thinking about,
All the possibilities.
Ain't no other place that I really wanna be,
Cause you're sweepin' me off my feet.
Boy, I got my eyes on you,
Tell me what you wanna do.
I can picture you in my room,
Until the morning.
I don't even know your name.
Boy, I need to know your name.
I'm hoping that you feel the same,
Tell me if you want it."

happy cheena new year, everyone!

happy birthday, bro!

vila'ge with bro & sis last night.
expected the food to be different from marche. turned out, everything is the same! oh but it was okay 'cos we love the food there. :)
was treated like a princess throughtout the whole night. :):):)
oh anyway, here's a song dedicated to my brother ('cos he loves this song!), whose birthday was on the 15th.
happy birthday bro. &&, i love you! :)

stuck in my head:
welcome to the black parade - my chemical romance

"We'll carry on, we'll carry on.
Though your dead and gone believe me,
Your memory will carry on,
We'll carry on.
And in my heart I cant contain it,
The anthem wont explain it."

you!:(

rock my world.

stuck in my head:
geek in the pink - jason mraz

"I don't care what she might think about me,
You can vibe without me if you want.
I could be the one to take her home,
Baby we could rock the night alone.
If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down,
But sugar don't forget what you already know.
I could be the one to turn you out,
We could be the talk across the town.
Don't judge me by the color, confuse it for another.
You might regret what you let slip away."

belated.

stuck in my head:
hurt - christina aguilera

"I'm sorry for blaming you,

For everything I just couldn't do.

And I've hurt myself by hurting you."

happy belated valentines..

loveday.

happy valentines day
to all lovers and friends!
MWAH! share the love!

stuck in my head:
grace - kate havnevik

"Nothing comes easily,
Fill this empty space.
Nothing is like it seems,
Turn my grief to grace."

4.46am, still wide awake.
so, where do i begin?

last week & today!

stuck in my head:
no promises - shayne ward

"I don't wanna run away,
Baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight,
I just wanna die in your arms,
Here tonight."

HELLO! i just realised i forgot to update about my haircut last wednesday with corrie.
we reached color bar at around 6-ish. reached there and i went, "OMG." know why? 'cos i we had to climb the stairs! and i only have a leg to hop so, oh no! but i still survived. wanna know how i climbed the stairs? i used my ass! yeah, smart but embarrassing. ugh. okay so when i reached the 2nd level, cut our hair &did treatment to kill time 'cos corrie was going for highlights. yeah, two hours went by. oh, did i mention that corrie's cousin came along? yeah she did. she was the one hailing our cab when we were taking pictures. so nice of her. :)

yeah here's the update for today.
woke up really early today despite having only a few hours of sleep. reason being, we have to go to temasek poly to check out the courses! so phiney woke me up, &waited for her to fetch me. reached the place &both of us didn't know what to do so we finally sat down and talked to this guy. ugh, my god he is such an a-hole. he told us that given our results, we wouldn't stand a chance in getting into any art courses even though are art result aren't bad. so when he swept away our hopes just like that, we headed down for a snack at some small canteen in the school 'cos potato head was hungry. her cousin came down after around 20mins and she told us all about this mean, selfish head of design guy and yeah it was him. ugh, all the things he told us were lies and i feel like throwing pies onto his frigging face!

okay so we went back to the JAE place and we asked about apparel design. tried enquiring about JPSAE &everything. then i wanted to go through DAE too but it was inside an auditorium that has stairs all the way down, so i just passed on that. okay i forgot to tell you guys the part where i hop and fall. basically i just hopped and fell on my ass a few steps before i reached the auditorium. it was super embarrassing 'cos at that point of time, people were already going up and then i was trying to go down then BANG! i fall. so yeah. but it was not that bad 'cos phiney's cousin was there. thanks! :)

cabbed down to sushi tei for phiney's work at 2.30pm. we were in the same cab so i went there with her to have my lunch/dinner and to pay the people there a visit too. :) it was nice seeing all of them again 'cos i miss them super, even though it's only been a week. :(
okay so stayed there 'til 6 'cos i want to spend time with my 4 bitches. &yay! my cast doesn't look so dull already 'cos they wrote lotsa stuffs on it already. :):):)
cabbed back home and slept like a pig 'til i woke up and realised i have to do my JPSAE & JAE stuffs.

okay, i'm writing in a really boring way right now 'cos i feel bored.
byebye now.

to stupid potato head. LOL!

stuck in my head:
speeding cars - imogen heap
"There, there, babyIt’s just text book stuff.It’s in the ABC of growing up.Now, now, darlin’,Oh don’t lose your head'.Cause none of us were angels,And you know I love you, yeah."

okay it isn't really stuck in my head.
i just want to dedicate this song to that stupid potato head.
hahaha! touched right? stupid potato head. LOL!

results day. #$%^&*!!

shall start of with something really horrifying.
got back our o level results this friday. omg, super horrid. i was so shocked with some subjects. some because i passed, others because i passed really well, and mostly 'cos i hated what i saw.
anyway i was in a really really angry/ dissatisfied/ furious/ irritated mood when ch'ng handed me my result slip. &then i slowly calmed myself down. of course i wouldn't have done it without my friends. they didn't do anything actually, but they give me just have that kind of power to make me feel better without doing anything. :)

oh so after hanging out at cwss' hall, &after watching them (with envy) play volleyball, we decided to go over to holland v's essential brew. crazy pictures below!


shirley
was
emo-ing
and
i
.
.
didn't
know
what
i
was
doing!

ugh!i suddenly remembered something.
while i was sitting at the benches, i showed them a very very pretty picture of me.(i know what you're thinking right now, SO THINCKSKINNED! but.. WHO CARES!)
haha, so anyway you know what they said??
they said i looked like PORN-erish THERE!
and it is so not true okay! 'cos i look SEDUCTIVE, not PORN-erish at all! HMPF!
LOL!

okay enough bout all that NONSENSE, the pictures above are only the 4 of us 'cos lihui wanted to go to ginza plaza first, so chermaine &crystal went with her & i was with the other half of the group. when they finally reached, we ordered. ugh! spent so much on food that day! but it was okay 'cos i had fun with my supergirlfriends! :)
after dinner all we did was chat and share to everyone about our funny sushitei moments! it was so hilarious, our cheek bones hurt after that! and we didnt stop there. when we were about to leave, we started laughing again 'cos i couldn't stand up! we we're like, crazy already. okay, you wouldn't understand 'cos you're not crazy. hahaha!

hmm..i've to go now. it's already 3:03!
okayokay, so here's me, showing you how frustrated i was (and still am) over my results.

TOODLES!

just a song.

stuck in my head:
that's why you go - michael learns to rock
"I won't forget the way you're kissing, the feeling so strong, we're lasting for so long. But I'm not the man your heart is missing. That's why you go away, I know."
sorry been away for so long.
will update as soon as i get the pictures from phiney.
so, byebye for now!