there's a lull and then another wave hits you. NO, it's not like that. it doesn't come in waves.
i miss him. all the time i miss him. it's not waves, it's constant. ALL THE TIME.
not all wounds are superficial. most wounds run deeper than you can imagine. you can't see them with the naked eye.
i know i can look perfectly fine on the outside. but my inside, it tells a whole other story.
I M I S S Y O U .
i know i've no right to be missing you, or to even be thinking about you at all. but i miss you, a whole damn lot. & i can't do anything to make that go away because i love you. i love you too damn much to forget everything we had together. i know i'm a very messed up girl with serious emotional problems. but i swear to god that i'm not having any doubts on how i feel about you now.
i need you. i need you to care for me, to give me warmth even when you're the one who's cold, to take care of me when i'm sick, to baby me when i ask you to, to cuddle me just because, to kiss my hand and make me feel like your princess, to sniff the top of my head and tell me how you love the way i smell, to hold my hand and never want to let me go, to dance with me whenever i force you, to be here for me whenever i need you.
i need you, i need us. this may be the world's biggest mistake & i know i sound really really selfish but i don't care anymore. i don't wanna care about what other people say anymore. the thing is, i just want you to be here with me. i just need you, need you so so much.
sighs..
